Meaningless

I hate RP. very hate.
Totally no life. FYP, PP, training, meeting and more meeting. Somehow I regret joining Student Union. With so many events coming up, I might die from fatigue before the event complete. I don't even feel like going to school tomorrow. There is nothing for me to look forward to. After school there will be meeting, if not is training. Not that I doesn't want to scarified one, but it the interest that keep me hanging on-rugby.
Say me emo or dao if you want. I hardly smile these days. There is so many things to do, so many things to settle. If slowed down, things piled up and will be really impossible to finish all. After so many things had happen, there's nothing for me to look upon to, except for more workload and training.
How I wish I was in TP. All my close friends my best friends are there. I do not have many close friends in RP. Mostly come from rugby. I still remembered the days in secondary, so carefree so bochap. After school, will chiong straight to the basketball court, not until 6 7 pm then go home. Even exam coming, we still be hanging at 117 court challenge other school. Even if not playing ball, we just hang out in school check out the chicks or go around disturbing teacher. Fond memories indeed. Time fly damn fast. As if instantly, now we in Year 3 and Hong in NS. The good ole days. No matter how busy I am, I still keep my sunday free. The day which we gathered for a game, day which we crap, day which I only smile and laugh.
I may topple anytime now. I just hope for the holiday to come soon. I leave my phone, laptop and everything at home, and being alone, separate from this environment. If there a shoulder for me to lean on, that girl to accompany with, that will be even perfect. But I know, it wouldn't happen. This only appear in my imaginary, in my dream.
It just me now. only me.