abit of low abit of high.

I just feel so sore.
Keep thinking why am I not selected for OCS during BMT.
Buddies like Kuan and Nah had commissioned last night with smiles and pride.
Seriously I'm damn jealous and envy them.
Marching out in 1 with their sword
Whereas I march out with my ever smelly LBV and getting just a small stupid knife.
I know I'm a sore loser
And I've reject crossover which is on next Monday.

It only now than I realised specialise have more pride than officers
Officer do go through hell training for 9 months, but spec did minor for 6 months.
But throughout the whole unit life, the person who did the most, who achieve the most are the Specialist.
Come on, I'm not consoling myself.
Being 4 months in the unit, I seen through alot.
I do respect the spec now.
I do proud of myself.

Anyway congrats to our best friends Nah and Wong. Unit is not as simple as you think. Treat the men well as well as the spec. They are the guys whom you have to trusted most. Just a little advice. Proud of you two.

Company Prof Test this week. A force of stress and excitement as I got to stand in as Platoon Sgt. And I being test by the CSM and RSM. I feel damn kanjiong, but still I will do my maximum and show them what caliber I am.