Emo Day 3

This is really retribution. Blame it on myself. Curse it on myself.
I'm always a bastard in relationship. Normally, it me who hurt girls, but there's only one who betray my feeling, Tricia Koh. Yah, i know it bad to say who is it, but who cares, it like century ago.
My shortest record is only 2 days and longest only 6 month. Nothing to be proud of. But, to be truth, I got more fling than having girlfriend.
Bastard? I agreed.
I got my retribution now.
I can't forget about her after so many weeks. If you are my close friend, you may think is this Siong? After each relation I had, snapped, other girls came in naturally. But not now. I don't know why. Seriously. And I not even close to her. I don't even woo her in the first place. And this relation started only three meeting with her. Till now, I still so deeply in love with her.
As you all know, she got a boyfriend.
I'm restricted. I can't do anything, except to like her in the dark.
After all the love i given out, the care i give, the feeling and everything, i don't know will she appreciate, will she know.
I scared of losing her. I scare she forget me. I scare she don't love me. I scare, I really scare.
Tell me what to do man.
I'm clueless.











I love you.